Monday, April 3, 2017


It is really a blessing and a tragedy that life continues on.

On one hand, it would be so nice to just stop everything and just grieve.
The thought is there that we get so caught up in the daily grind that we, dare I say, forget the unforgettable even if just for a moment or two? 

I have to say that my ability to grieve privately was taken away and I was rather angry at that.
I dreaded going into the place knowing that everyone knew and that there would be comments--well meaning as I know they were meant to be.
On reflection though, what was done was Biblical--we are called to bear one another's burdens (Gal. 6:2).  
How can we bear them, if we don't know what they are?
How can we rightly pray for one another if we don't know the struggles?
 It doesn't mean that I necessarily want to talk about it, but knowing that there are people praying really is a comfort.

Life does go on from one minute to the next. This task, person and the next all needing attention and we fix our focus outside of ourselves.  That is a blessing. We don't focus all of our self ON ourselves and OUR feelings and such.  Now certainly there cannot be a time limit--not Should there be--on grief.  

We are back to a "regular" schedule this week.  My husband is back to work, we are back to schooling and like I said, I'm a bit torn.  I am thankful to have these tasks to do so that I'm not focused on just the heartbreak, but on the other hand, it is not something I can just "put behind" and move on.  I am grateful that the weather is beautiful and sunny today and it seems that Spring is finally here..Easter is right around the corner and with it the remembrance that with the Resurrection is a hope for a new life.

"Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you:
But rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ's sufferings; that, when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy."
~1 Peter 4:12-13

1 comment:

Carol said...

Stacie, I admire you, when I had my losses, I was in so much pain & anguish & I wasn't a true believer. I feel your pain, I pray that God will hold you up & continue to heal the hole in your heart.I'm here for you & Mike... love, mom